When I Was a Little Girl

some of what happen now remind me of the 'little' me. yes, way back to the yester-years of being that little girl.

that time was the time when i was innocent, the time when i don't really use my head before acting, the time when everything seem so easy to be lived for, the time that i can really laugh for the entire day and slept soundly without worrying sick of anything.

the time when i was stupid like a cow being a little bit naughty.

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Case 1

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i'm not a cute girl to begin with. i have my own tanned skin which i believed mom was craving for the soy sauce when she was carrying me.

erk, kenape fikir sampai macam tuh skali?

blame to the fact of my mom told me that she was craving for soy drink when she was carrying Aca. FYI, she's fair.

soy drink=white

soy sauce=black

sape tak emo. haha. tadek la. emo time kekecik je.

when i was 9 or 10, fair n lovely was a hit on the beauty chart. as a kid that totally got under influence and a desperation of being a beauty (hhahahaah), i asked my dad to go buy it for me.

"abah, akak rase akak nak fair n lovely la"

"nape akak nak fair n lovely?"

"sbb akak nak putih, orang lain putih je. abang putih, aca putih, akim, asha pon same"

"akak cat je la muke akak. lagi putih dari sumer orang. abah hitam ok je? *sengih*"

langsung diam tanda protes. tp still abah tak belikan. *lari dengan perasaan terguris*

- mase nih asha putih lagi la. hahahahahah skang dah same ngan akuuuuuuuuuu

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Case 2

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since Aca is the cute girl at that time with the package of short, straight hair, fair and chubby, i have nothing to be compete with. i'm brown, keding lak tuh. tapi kenape ako nak compete? cause one of my favourite cousin said "Aca ni kiut la" hati nih membuak-buak la nak cantik.

since he got his eyes on her, i've choosed to pick another path. the lead singer boyband 'Exist' was the one that i turned to. yer, si Mamat tuh.

i remembered that a padlock had accidentally fell onto my feet, and my toes were bleeding. i was crying like hell and what i've asked for was Mamat to rescue me.

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bodohnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. tolong la lempang ako laju-laju

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Case 3

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i would say i'm a successful bully. as an innocent-look bully, i focused my job inside the family circle only, means the victims would be my dear bro and sistahs. but usually my bro would be the great Personal Assistant in executing our 'brilliant' plan to our sistahs (HA HA HA gelak jahat) and the plan would be executed only behind our parents as we want to avoid any punishment listed below:

ranking punishment (most popular):

1. cubitan 'merah' kasih sayang dari umi (mmg umph)

2. kene baling hanger baju

3. kene rotan

4. jengilan mata yang ganas

there was a day when me and bro digging Spidey's spiderweb (we found it's uber-cool) and we've decided to do one, our own version. using chewing gums. we've chewed a lots of chewing gums, and started making it into a shape like a thin thread and streched each ends to the door panel.

rupe pintu setelah didekorasi dengan chewed gum

kim, who is around 4-5 that time, wanted to join us building the spiderweb, but we've declined. budak kecik mane terel buat spiderweb, fikir ako time tuh. but she kept on insisted to join us although we've keep demured her. by the time we've finished with our web, we're totally amazed of our work. me and my bro were proud and stand in awe looking at our own version. erm, what's the fun left after a thing are done? we've destroyed it. :D

"kim, meh sini. lalu la kat tgh tuh *sambil tunjuk kat spiderweb versi kami*"
"haa? lalu ke?"
"haah lalu la. lalu la!"

maka, berlalulah kim ke tgh-tgh spiderweb itu. "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!"

the chewing gums are all over kim's hair. me and my bro changing look to each other. for sure, we were panicked. we've to rush before umi finds out about this. yet.. we were too late..

"Akak, Abang??! Ape yang korang dah buat nih?"

umi was shocked to see kim in that condition while us beside her. while she was trying to get the gums off from kim's hair, she gave tons of nagging and scolded us for our doings. sangat penat telinga nih menadah.

not to forget, kim got a hair cut that day to get rid the gums. bad news was, it doesn't suits her at all. hahaha.

*maafkan akak, kim*

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Case 4
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me and my bro loooooveee to drink A&W root beer. we love the sensational feeling when drinking it, which we would say "Aaah" after gulping the drink. Abah has bought 1 bottle of it as there were guests coming to the house.

but, we've tend to fight over the drink with the guest as we want to drink it as well, and abah was furious about it (malu la tuh anak gadoh-gadoh depan guest. haha). so, when the guests were gone, abah was back with 2 bottles of A&W root beer. suke nye kami tidak kepalang wieeeyyyy!

abah called us both to sit in the kitchen and placed one bottle each in front of us.

"Ha, nak sangat kan. minum nih sampai habis. kalau tak habis, jangan naik"

erk.. i was confused with his statement but i can see my bro was excited to finish it all up.
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5 minutes passed by

"umi, akak dah tak larat la nak minum. minum esok takleh ker?"

baru tahu tak larat kan nak habeskan. abg yg rase gagah nak minum pon tak larat tau. :P
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that was a part of my foolishness, silly-lilly and when i think it back, it would give me a smile or a small laugh, and somehow it can make my day. yeah i really wish i'm not that kid when i was small, but when the bits are gone, there're nothing left to be laughed to.

tapi sayang la tak penah buli asha mase kekecik. oops!

:P

aku sayang famili aku. sob sob sob.

21 Questions

he used to sang this song to me, when the song was top on the chart. i would thought this would be a sappy song for a rapper who known as '50 cent'. his single ' In the Club' was the in-thing back then, and later, he came out with this kind of song.

please switch on your imaginary channel, imagine a tough, half-naked hulk singing a love song with that look in his eyes. the 'lovey dovey' look. ouch! hahahahahahhah

OK, i really can't bare to imagine 50 cent singing this to me, cause i'm not head over heels towards him, and he does not make me dream about him every night. but, if your special one singing this to you? this song just turn into a new era, a new touch, a new meaning. ewahh.

girls always think about their security. yes, that's true, indeed it applies to every single of women. it's just how women lead their life in achieving the level of security are different with each other.

when the hulk produced this song, i could feel that, guys would want themselves to be loved as themselves, as the real them. (biase la tuh kami pompuan nak yang terbaik utk kite berdue. hahahahaha. korang pon same, dun be in denial) i admit girls are easy to fall in love with some hunks. hunks as well known, are totally driven and fantasize girls all the time. and then, they might start to say 'Hi' and starting dating, but that's not when the challenge begins. it will just start when both are you thinking about making the relationship further. that's when you can see the true colors of each others, and the idea of how to cope with all the new things can be troublesome (and wonderful also!).

ah, senang citer, ini lagu luahan lelaki yang taff (read: tough) dan saye menghargai keberanian dier sbb lelaki sukar untuk meluahkan perasaan mereka. sebab, selalunye perempuan yang suke meluahkan perasaan, bukan lelaki. sekian, sile la nyanyi nyanyi lagu di bawah.

tolong jangan tembak ako cakap ako seksis.

Girl...It's easy to love me now...
Would you love me if I was down and out?
Would you still have love for me?
Girl...It's easy to love me now
Would you love me if I was down and out?
Would you still have love for me?
Girl...

1. If I fell off tomorrow would you still love me?
2. If I didn't smell so good would you still hug me?
3. If I got locked up and sentenced to a quarter century, Could I count on you to be there to support me mentally?
4. If I went back to a hoopty from a Benz, would you poof and disappear like some of my friends?
5. If I was hit and I was hurt would you be by my side?
6. If it was time to put in work would you be down to ride?
7. I'd get out and peel a nigga cap and chill and drive, I'm asking questions to find out how you feel inside
8. If I ain't rap 'cause I flipped burgers at Burger King, would you be ashamed to tell your friends you feelin' me?
9. In the bed if I used my tongue would you like that?
10. If I wrote you a love letter would you write back?
Now we can have a lil' drink you know a nightcap
And we could go do what you like, I know you like that

11. Now would you leave me if your father found out I was thuggin'?
12. Do you believe me when I tell you, you the one I'm loving?
13. Are you mad 'cause I'm asking you 21 questions?
14. Are you my soulmate? 'Cause if so, girl you a blessing
15. Do you trust me enough, to tell me your dreams?
I'm staring at ya' trying to figure how you got in them jeans
16. If I was down would you say things to make me smile? I treat you how you want to be treated just teach me how
17. If I was with some other chick and someone happened to see?
18. And when you asked me about it I said it wasn't me, Would you believe me? Or up and leave me?
19. How deep is our bond if that's all it takes for you to be gone?
We only humans girl we make mistakes, to make it up I do whatever it takeI love you like a fat kid love cake

You know my style I say anything to make you smile

20. Could you love me in the bently?
21. Could you love me on a bus?

I'll ask 21 questions, and they all about us

Could you love me in the bently?
Could you love me on a bus?
I'll ask 21 questions, and they all about us

Ya, saya kemukakan yang same kepada en bf.

p/s: got a few questions above that too 'ewww' for me, and it may to you too. so just ignore it. wat dunno, got me? :P one more, ako pakai label je soklan tuh haha

pp/s: yer ade label baru, 'lelaki' hahahahahahhahaha

note: the 21 questions game is THE way to get to know someone without being awkward; actually carrying a conversation with someone in order to learn about them might be harmful to you and the other person. it can be any questions (doesn't mean to be the same as above) that you have in mind. try it, you might love it!

We're Slackin' Off so Vote for the Worst

i know i should go for the most beautiful shot, or something that we want to see from our picture; that we're cute, good looking, lawa giler or ape ape je lah. but being me, i have TONS of beauty pictures of myself (hahahahahahahahahaha mmg ako perasan gile tp takpe sendiri sendiri perasan), i opt to put the other side of beauty. beauty from another angle which i called 'gamba failed'.

actually there are other pics that fulfilling our criteria (gamba failed) but i've choose the best 5 from all shots taken during Raya. (read: best for the worst).

oh. we don't want to waste any more time crapping, so here goes picture number 1!


drumroll please

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1.

ok. kalo nak diteliti lame lame pon bleh juling,

so tgk kejap je la. angle molot agak menarik, ditambah

dengan penggayaan jari ditepi.

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yer saye tgh melayan blues di tepi daun daun yg melilit tiang umah

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art bak kate akim.

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fokus budak di tgh. yer saye pon tatau dier tgh

buat gaye ape, janji bleh masuk contest

5.

erm.. no comment

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa failed sungguh!

p/s: gurls, me wurve u gurls so much! kreko sungguh kite, tak terkata lagy. hak hak hak

re-inventing my phase

i used to blog; using blogdrive. that time i do not have a lot of time to blog but as it's a trend and i'm being the good follower (haha) plus i'm an IT student (which remind me of the tech savvy that other peeps would think but i'm NOT!), i've make myself to write one. :P i DID write crap at that time. seriously. nothing beats my crappie writing, even if michael jackson turn black again still can't beat my writing. man, just imagining him black with that pointed nose and that dull eyes combo with that thin red lips would make me puke. erm, enuff of that.

basically, i want to write again because:

1. it's painful mind-numbing, dreary at the office *batuk kuat kuat*
2. i want to write all stuff that i have in mind. it can be positive, negative or neutral things and peeps, bare in mind that you may love or loathe my writing but just keep on reading if you love me. haha
3. i want to update myself easily especially with my cik wan Aca, cik wan Akim, cik wan Asha, cik kak Shireen & cik kak Rahaya and whom i'm not meeting them everyday or on usual basis. and too other peeps that i expected them to know more about me. cam cik Wawa ke sbb slalu gosip dari jauh dan sesape lagi la yg nak tau. *perasan nih*
4. i love the idea of having our writing on the net. it's totally not about gile glemer ke ape. it's about memori daun pisang la dipendekkan cerite. crappie writing and what-other-nonsense la. tp bile bace balik kelakar and give out the smile from the inside. that's what count.
5. my ultimate reason dulu, want to improve my writing in english. walaopon tak penah improvenye haha

anyway i do hope this blog would adding some colors to my phase now because i'm indeed searching for rainbow in my life. bla bla bla :P mmg hopeful abes la nih kirenye. sooooo...

GO IQA! hee..

oh btw, i need to credit someone. cik Nadxoxo yg sudi tunjuk care nak buat blog. trimas yer cik adik manis. and highlighted si cik Emi yg tak renti renti nak bace dari blakang walaopon dah emphasize tadik saye tulis tak best. ape ape je la :P there you go, a lil bit of my mind and definitely would be more afterthis.

P/S: cik wan Aca is going back to Aussie tomorrow. Pray hard peeps that she'll get the cuppie that she long for. Ameen.