When I Was a Little Girl

some of what happen now remind me of the 'little' me. yes, way back to the yester-years of being that little girl.

that time was the time when i was innocent, the time when i don't really use my head before acting, the time when everything seem so easy to be lived for, the time that i can really laugh for the entire day and slept soundly without worrying sick of anything.

the time when i was stupid like a cow being a little bit naughty.

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Case 1

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i'm not a cute girl to begin with. i have my own tanned skin which i believed mom was craving for the soy sauce when she was carrying me.

erk, kenape fikir sampai macam tuh skali?

blame to the fact of my mom told me that she was craving for soy drink when she was carrying Aca. FYI, she's fair.

soy drink=white

soy sauce=black

sape tak emo. haha. tadek la. emo time kekecik je.

when i was 9 or 10, fair n lovely was a hit on the beauty chart. as a kid that totally got under influence and a desperation of being a beauty (hhahahaah), i asked my dad to go buy it for me.

"abah, akak rase akak nak fair n lovely la"

"nape akak nak fair n lovely?"

"sbb akak nak putih, orang lain putih je. abang putih, aca putih, akim, asha pon same"

"akak cat je la muke akak. lagi putih dari sumer orang. abah hitam ok je? *sengih*"

langsung diam tanda protes. tp still abah tak belikan. *lari dengan perasaan terguris*

- mase nih asha putih lagi la. hahahahahah skang dah same ngan akuuuuuuuuuu

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Case 2

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since Aca is the cute girl at that time with the package of short, straight hair, fair and chubby, i have nothing to be compete with. i'm brown, keding lak tuh. tapi kenape ako nak compete? cause one of my favourite cousin said "Aca ni kiut la" hati nih membuak-buak la nak cantik.

since he got his eyes on her, i've choosed to pick another path. the lead singer boyband 'Exist' was the one that i turned to. yer, si Mamat tuh.

i remembered that a padlock had accidentally fell onto my feet, and my toes were bleeding. i was crying like hell and what i've asked for was Mamat to rescue me.

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bodohnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. tolong la lempang ako laju-laju

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Case 3

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i would say i'm a successful bully. as an innocent-look bully, i focused my job inside the family circle only, means the victims would be my dear bro and sistahs. but usually my bro would be the great Personal Assistant in executing our 'brilliant' plan to our sistahs (HA HA HA gelak jahat) and the plan would be executed only behind our parents as we want to avoid any punishment listed below:

ranking punishment (most popular):

1. cubitan 'merah' kasih sayang dari umi (mmg umph)

2. kene baling hanger baju

3. kene rotan

4. jengilan mata yang ganas

there was a day when me and bro digging Spidey's spiderweb (we found it's uber-cool) and we've decided to do one, our own version. using chewing gums. we've chewed a lots of chewing gums, and started making it into a shape like a thin thread and streched each ends to the door panel.

rupe pintu setelah didekorasi dengan chewed gum

kim, who is around 4-5 that time, wanted to join us building the spiderweb, but we've declined. budak kecik mane terel buat spiderweb, fikir ako time tuh. but she kept on insisted to join us although we've keep demured her. by the time we've finished with our web, we're totally amazed of our work. me and my bro were proud and stand in awe looking at our own version. erm, what's the fun left after a thing are done? we've destroyed it. :D

"kim, meh sini. lalu la kat tgh tuh *sambil tunjuk kat spiderweb versi kami*"
"haa? lalu ke?"
"haah lalu la. lalu la!"

maka, berlalulah kim ke tgh-tgh spiderweb itu. "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!"

the chewing gums are all over kim's hair. me and my bro changing look to each other. for sure, we were panicked. we've to rush before umi finds out about this. yet.. we were too late..

"Akak, Abang??! Ape yang korang dah buat nih?"

umi was shocked to see kim in that condition while us beside her. while she was trying to get the gums off from kim's hair, she gave tons of nagging and scolded us for our doings. sangat penat telinga nih menadah.

not to forget, kim got a hair cut that day to get rid the gums. bad news was, it doesn't suits her at all. hahaha.

*maafkan akak, kim*

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Case 4
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me and my bro loooooveee to drink A&W root beer. we love the sensational feeling when drinking it, which we would say "Aaah" after gulping the drink. Abah has bought 1 bottle of it as there were guests coming to the house.

but, we've tend to fight over the drink with the guest as we want to drink it as well, and abah was furious about it (malu la tuh anak gadoh-gadoh depan guest. haha). so, when the guests were gone, abah was back with 2 bottles of A&W root beer. suke nye kami tidak kepalang wieeeyyyy!

abah called us both to sit in the kitchen and placed one bottle each in front of us.

"Ha, nak sangat kan. minum nih sampai habis. kalau tak habis, jangan naik"

erk.. i was confused with his statement but i can see my bro was excited to finish it all up.
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5 minutes passed by

"umi, akak dah tak larat la nak minum. minum esok takleh ker?"

baru tahu tak larat kan nak habeskan. abg yg rase gagah nak minum pon tak larat tau. :P
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that was a part of my foolishness, silly-lilly and when i think it back, it would give me a smile or a small laugh, and somehow it can make my day. yeah i really wish i'm not that kid when i was small, but when the bits are gone, there're nothing left to be laughed to.

tapi sayang la tak penah buli asha mase kekecik. oops!

:P

aku sayang famili aku. sob sob sob.

Have No Idea

umi's birthday (read: mom's birthday) is approaching soon, and i haven't decide on what to buy for her. seriously, she just can buy any desired thing with her own money.

comparing that fact with my salary (minus all commitment and bills and what-not), i just can't find the idea of what of to be given to her as her birthday present.

i do appreciate if you guys can suggest me gifts that i can give to her, as 'the gift' can be utilized at the fullest, unlike un-temp thing like flowers that can stay just for a few days. oh, and at moderate price also.

perhaps being a kid, it won't be too difficult in making decision on what to buy, eh?

asha. my youngest sister, have been known as a person that not afraid to show her love to our parents. and this is not meant by, being youngest, she's the one that has been showered with fully attention by our parents. she's totally independent for a teenager at her age, and has been treated fair and equal like us by them.

it's just, what differ me and her, she would ask my mom's hands, and kiss her hands and forehead before going to school, everyday which is unlike me who has been stayed at hostel before, was totally awkward when seeing her like that.

ako kan rebel. kate rebel. mane reti nak wat cemtu. dulu la skang tidak lagy!

got this one time, when she was little, i think she was around 8 or 9, she did something that i do remember it until this now. i do think it's cute for her to do that, and adorable too. :)

it was my mom's birthday and while others were just wishing her birthday, she shopped for my mom for her gift, and can you ever guess what she has bought for my mom?

a toothbrush and a small box of coco crunch kid size.

"nah, happy birthday umi!" said her innocently, and i do remember that i've cracked to tons of unstoppable laughter.

"ape nih. beli nih kat umi? kelakar la ko!" sambung gelak gelak.

and mom back her up said "at least dier kasik umi hadiah kan?" senyum umi.

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yer ako terkedu. and after that, i would always remember to give my mom something for her birthday, to show and tell her, that i do LOVE her, that i do REMEMBER her birthday. (altho kadang2 terkantoi tak terkasik sbb tak berduit. hihi)

so, i do appreciate any suggestions from you guys. thanks in advance!

The Old Memory

i have done some packing for the job training in Bangalore that has been scheduled tomorrow, and now it has been cancelled due to management issue. half happy and half upset. heh. i do think i'm ok with it after our lil talk at mamak last night with mun mun and wa wa (haha cam twin lak). and yes, my dear BF is soooo happy with the news. that means (for him) that he won't celebrate our 6th anniversary alone this upcoming 12th January. horrrey!

but i do worried about the status of the company. it does worries me much.. sigh sigh sigh

while i'm packing my bag for the trip a few day before, it bring along the old memories back when i have the offer from the boarding school.

jeng jeng jeng
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"akak, dah buat check list cam abah suruh tuh?"
"dah. nape bah?"
"meh sini nak tengok (paused ngan kerut kerut muke) nape cam ade banyak je yang tak cukup. isk. meh la abah tambah lagi"

and he went on writing more things into my checklist (which is yang sebenar-benarnye incomplete yet because abah is so strict by the due date i just told him that i've done with it. huhuhu haruu). and later abah passed the list to me again, and to my amazement, the list has gone 2 times longer than the previous one.

talking about my dad, dude. he's all about perfection in work, although he can be as laid back as he wanted. haha

anyway, what can be expected from the form 1 student when this is her first time she gonna be far away from her parents. you could assume that she haven't prepared anything, because she believed she just going to the same school as the other school.

the time has come for the registration. farhana and nazihah have waited for me for quite some time just to make sure that we will have the same dormitory, but sad news to us as they already placed our name to the designated dorm. me and farhana were on our half-lucky strike as we were placed in the same dorm, while nazihah's dorm was at the 3rd floor.

farhana, being the one who are very closed to her family, was being totally gloomy that day. she doesn't like the idea of being far away from her family, which for me i totally didn't understand at that time. because at that time, i'm the person who don't know what's 'missing someone' means. i'm not that close to my family either at that time rasenye la kut

week passed us by, and i can see the whole 1st week, the public telephones provided were fully occupied. there were 3 telephones overall at our hostel, and girls do fight about their rights using the phone (mind you there were some people that will go on talking talking talking sob sob and talking like for-evah!)

"mak, tak suke la duk sini. tak same la cam kat umah *teary eyes*"

"mak, nape lauk kat sini tak sedap macam yg mak masak kat umah eh? tak best la"

"mak, tolong la amek saye balik. sangatla tak best kat hostel nih"

sumer nak ber-mak mak la kan. kat umah tanak ber-mak mak. baru ko tahu duk jauh dari mak bapak.

what i'm trying to tell here is that, everyone was feeling homesick and i wonder am i the only one who is happy here? why i'm not reacting as them? why i don't feel anything? if i called home, i won't take a long time to chit chatting with my family. enough with asking how are they doing and chit chat a little bit more and i'm done. but the others would be so draggy when they called home.

i labeled them as 'the crybaby' *yer betapa sombong nye ako time tuh*

every weekend farhana would received a visit from her parents. being me who is a close friend to her at that time, and has known her parents for some a quite time, i'll always be beside her when she was meeting them. i can see there was a smile on her face, something warm wraps her. i'm quite sure she was happy when seeing them there close to her.

every time her parents make a visit to her, that every time too they will asked me "abah ngan umi tak datang ker?" and i would politely replied, "tak la uncle. abah busy kot"

but.. 4th week came, and they asked the same question, and i'm giving the same old answer, her father suddenly said, "takpela, uncle pon bleh jadik abah atiqah kan?" and he smiled.

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*dumbstruck*

i can feel like my heart have stopped. i stood there, and it was hard to breath. too many eyes were staring at me, waiting for me to give my response. slowly i manage to get my composure back and replied with a soft, weak smile, "nak masuk dulu la, saje jumpe uncle ngan auntie nak salam-salam dan tanye khabar. jumpe lagi!".

i dashed to the toilet and sobbed. and the sobbing worsen with the thought that my parents haven't seen me for a month, and just now my friend's father said he can be my father. bang! i'm not mad at him for saying that. really, it just hit me with the reality.

for a 13 years old teenager, i'm not thinking at my best. i'm not at my best for the clueless emotional rampage. i'm not a spoilt kid back in home, but this is my first time seeing myself in a weak condition. i've barely knew myself anymore when i realized that i'm crying harder. is this me? is this the real me?

later, i called home, and i did what the others did. the draggy conversation, the sobbing part, the mak-mak thingy, all have came back to me right on my face. HAHAHA look, who is the crybaby now eh? *raised up my white flag kuang kuang kuang*

abah directly came at me the very next day. and i got TONS of surprise. wahhhhhh

1. lotsa food; junk food, chocs, sweets you named it.
2. some new long sleeve shirt
and the most important thing at that time
3. my first ever walkman :D

huahuahuahuahuahauah. tak nanges dah. bleh tahan bapak ako sogok ako :D

thanks to this school because without this experience i wouldn't be teached on how to be independent and know to appreciate others.

me luv ma familia!

p/s: aca kasik nih semalam while having our sisterly-dine-out "motorsikal apa yang berpusing-pusing tapi tak bergerak". the answer is totally hilarious. haha but i guess everybody knew it already pon :D

The Job Matter

i really need another job. a job that can occupy me jobs for 9 hours at the office without wandering around doing nothing. yer macam melangut depan pc buat buat bz. atau keluar lepak lepak. atau _______ (sile isi sendiri)

i do like free time, who doesn't? but if the free time means lingering like this for 1 year and a plus (and coming.. oh!), i would go nuts in no time. haha.

eh what? find something to fill in your free time at the office?

i really have enough to think more on what to do in my free time. dah mati kutu. i admit i'm not the one that will study during my free time. i'm the one who study last minute; means if i do get the job, and then i will go study for it. i'm not proud of it, but that's myself. i'm no angel to study during my free time without knowing what's waiting me. (ok mungkin ako patut berubah sket disini. hehe) and here, 1 year and a plus without any major improvement. nothing? yes, it is trully a big dissapointment.

but, can i survived out there without having good resume while working here in company xXx? ceh, ako pon dah tiru xXx. tajaan cikpest honestly, i don't know. i really don't. the last option that i have is just

"GO FOR IT"

btw,

SHE GOT THE JOB!

i'm so happy for you dear! shie's coming home and hell yeah we'll rock KL like we used to! <3 u


p/s: aca tgh praktikal skang kat KLCC. bimbang plak ngan adik ako sorang tuh. huhu

Weekend at Texas

aaaaaaaaaaa!!

i'm exhausted. it was just 2 days ago when i'm arrived here in Texas (read: Chukai), and tonight i'll be heading back to KL.

hey hey hey. please don't get me wrong here. it's not that i don't like being at my home sweet home. i love to be at home. really. it just the way back here; the journey that makes me feel exhausted. sitting in the car until my arse numb.

"walawey, bape jam la sangat KL ngan Kemaman tuh. banyak bunyik plak"

yes, it will just take only 4 hrs for us to reach Kemaman but the point is my arse is numbing at the extend you will want to move your body at every minute time. leave alone to scratch your arse when it's itching. very uncomfortable. and after you reached your destination, you will definitely do the strecthing. how's that? penat kan?

ok ok ako mmg saje cari pasal. ako penat je. enuff said

tp yg penting ako happpppppy balik umah. hahahahahahaahhahahahahahah

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my mom. everyone who has met her will definitely said that:

"eh, mak ko macam garang la. takoot"

"erm, mak ko tak marah ke ako datang umah nih?"

"ala segan la ngan mak ko"

dan ape ape lagy la.

padahal mak ako normal je tp biase la ngan anak anak dier mesti la garang sket. hahahahaha


btw, i'm not writing about her garang-ness la. dier kelakar ape. kih kih. she actually got this one habit that she always praticing it when we're not switching off our fan or the lights (note that we're not in our room at that time).

"bang, tadik kesian umie tgk kawan ko sorang-sorang dlm bilik tuh. tanak ajak kluar ke?"

"akak, kawan ko nih panas sangat ke dlm bilik nih. tanak ajak kluar ke?"

the actual thing is, we have no 'friend' there inside our room. and we all know that she's actually refering to the fact that we're not switching off our lights or fan.

so of course la kami kasik jawapan:

abang: "takpela umie, jap lagy abang join dier dlm bilik tuh jugak. it's ok. biarkan je"

me: "tuh la kesian kawan akak dlm bilik tuh panas. jap lagy akak ajak la dier kluar plak"


pastu umie mestilah "dahhhhhhhh dahhhhhh gi ajak kawan ko kluar!!!"

hahahahahhahahahhhhhahahahhahaa baru nak mencicit lari totop lampu kipas.


p/s: kami dah ajak kawan kami kluar demi umie. :D sayang umie
pp/s: kesian akim tgh tunggu turn nak blogging. eh eh nak men dota. ok la chao

We're Slackin' Off so Vote for the Worst

i know i should go for the most beautiful shot, or something that we want to see from our picture; that we're cute, good looking, lawa giler or ape ape je lah. but being me, i have TONS of beauty pictures of myself (hahahahahahahahahaha mmg ako perasan gile tp takpe sendiri sendiri perasan), i opt to put the other side of beauty. beauty from another angle which i called 'gamba failed'.

actually there are other pics that fulfilling our criteria (gamba failed) but i've choose the best 5 from all shots taken during Raya. (read: best for the worst).

oh. we don't want to waste any more time crapping, so here goes picture number 1!


drumroll please

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1.

ok. kalo nak diteliti lame lame pon bleh juling,

so tgk kejap je la. angle molot agak menarik, ditambah

dengan penggayaan jari ditepi.

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yer saye tgh melayan blues di tepi daun daun yg melilit tiang umah

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art bak kate akim.

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fokus budak di tgh. yer saye pon tatau dier tgh

buat gaye ape, janji bleh masuk contest

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erm.. no comment

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa failed sungguh!

p/s: gurls, me wurve u gurls so much! kreko sungguh kite, tak terkata lagy. hak hak hak

Aca to Aussie

it's not even close to a hectic day (compared to Hari Raya which we've been here and there since 1st Raya) but the adrenaline of rushing to get her cuppies was somehow challenged me in a way.

*buat ala ala mengah semput sumer*

let see:

monday the 6th, straightly after work i went there to order the cuppies as cik kim yg masam said that the shop will only be closed at 9pm. but the shop is not open yet (yer somehow ako gamble je gi kedai tuh malas nak check internet. padan muke). there's a white paper stick onto the door stated 'will be opening back on 8th'. surely, a lil of frustation, and directly i called my sis to confirm her flight again.

:) happy news people. her flight is on 8th at 9pm.

so dengan hati bebunge riang, i drove back and have a meeting between my housemates about our lil 'open-house' and yes you're totally invited! :)

pastu pastu, kan cuppies has not be ordered yet, so yesterday i rushed there NOT that early in the morning (note: shop opened 9am, i went there 11am. hehe) to make sure that design wanted (high heels, bags & all the girls thingy) can be done by them but unfortunately they said that it's a short time notice and told me that they only can give me the default design. ala asal ade kan? i picked one design (which actually looked like hot pink in the picture but turned out to be pastel pink tp takpela jugak) and paid for the cuppies. thanks to cik adik kim yg masam sbb tolong picked up the cuppies back sbb kakak dier nih dah malas nak drive balik. haha

the pink haze cuppies

bla bla bla dah sampai klia...

she was shocked, speechless.
a lil of teardrop can been seen from her face when she received our pressie. she looked at me and hug me tight and i can feel her teardrops fell onto my shoulder.

Ha ye la sangat. Aca nak nanges ke? haha tgk citer melayu boleh la nak nanges :P

but she's indeed shocked and thanked us which she said that we shouldn't have to do all that tp ako tau ko ske kan kan kan. hihihihihi.

take care cik wan Aca. we all gonna miss you. in fact, i'm missing you now babe. sob sob. Raya tahun nih mmg best because all of us gather as one big family again, sharing the moment together like we used to. gile gile, big laugh plus umie pon dah terkene penyakit loyar buruk.

anddddddd HAPPY 21st BURFDAY! one year younger, one year wiser. jgn terbalik lak. heee

wurve u!

retro girl

gurls @ raye

** terlupe lak smlm aca ade mention jgn pakai lip gloss kat aussie bile summer/spring. kang ade lalat terlekat kat molot. haha

p/s: dejah type sendiri nih. dejah chomel. ye ke? :P btw siti patah hati en anuar 'patah'. pastu emi tanye name dier ade lagi tak? hihi ade kot

cupcakes dibeli dari http://cuppacakes.blogspot.com/ wondermilk cupcakes