Have No Idea

umi's birthday (read: mom's birthday) is approaching soon, and i haven't decide on what to buy for her. seriously, she just can buy any desired thing with her own money.

comparing that fact with my salary (minus all commitment and bills and what-not), i just can't find the idea of what of to be given to her as her birthday present.

i do appreciate if you guys can suggest me gifts that i can give to her, as 'the gift' can be utilized at the fullest, unlike un-temp thing like flowers that can stay just for a few days. oh, and at moderate price also.

perhaps being a kid, it won't be too difficult in making decision on what to buy, eh?

asha. my youngest sister, have been known as a person that not afraid to show her love to our parents. and this is not meant by, being youngest, she's the one that has been showered with fully attention by our parents. she's totally independent for a teenager at her age, and has been treated fair and equal like us by them.

it's just, what differ me and her, she would ask my mom's hands, and kiss her hands and forehead before going to school, everyday which is unlike me who has been stayed at hostel before, was totally awkward when seeing her like that.

ako kan rebel. kate rebel. mane reti nak wat cemtu. dulu la skang tidak lagy!

got this one time, when she was little, i think she was around 8 or 9, she did something that i do remember it until this now. i do think it's cute for her to do that, and adorable too. :)

it was my mom's birthday and while others were just wishing her birthday, she shopped for my mom for her gift, and can you ever guess what she has bought for my mom?

a toothbrush and a small box of coco crunch kid size.

"nah, happy birthday umi!" said her innocently, and i do remember that i've cracked to tons of unstoppable laughter.

"ape nih. beli nih kat umi? kelakar la ko!" sambung gelak gelak.

and mom back her up said "at least dier kasik umi hadiah kan?" senyum umi.

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yer ako terkedu. and after that, i would always remember to give my mom something for her birthday, to show and tell her, that i do LOVE her, that i do REMEMBER her birthday. (altho kadang2 terkantoi tak terkasik sbb tak berduit. hihi)

so, i do appreciate any suggestions from you guys. thanks in advance!

I'm Sorry Reen

Haih..

It's been some time since my last update. And it's been some time that I've received one kewl award (pergh!) from Missy Reen. Thank you, thank you :) Please don't think I'm ignoring it, haha

1. Copy badge “2008 Cute’s 3logger Award” di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda

2. Link/ceritakan kembali siapa yang memberikan award ini kepada anda.
- she's reen. the pretty one. tak bodek, serius nih. seserius ako main DOTa.

- although she and me graduated from MMU Cyberjaya, i never have the chance to know her AT ALL while studying there. it's weird cause, i knew all her friends, plus, i do recognize her, and knew her name (hahhh) but we never have the chance to say hi. (ade chance sebenarnye tapi tah, ditakdirkan begitu. kuang kuang)

then in this place called XXX, we met again for the __ time, and she said hi, and i believe that's when i knew her better :D

- i always thought that she can be the 'bidan terjun' (or replacer) for this silkygirl model if she's sick/taking MC/abducted by the alien.

cilok dari orkidlah8

- i don't know what she's doing now although we're stationed in ODC as neighbours (read: ODC bersebelahan). perhaps on this reason:

1. dier shift pagy, ako shift petang

2. dier shift petang, ako shift pagy

3. aku je shift, dier tak shift (mmg setia)

4. dier je shift, ako tak shift (mmg tidak, sile pangkah potong ako tak reti la nak wat line potong ayat tuh)

5. lu pk la sendiri

- dier skandal ngan ___ , pemain badminton yg lincah tapi peliknye tak berDOTa

- and last, you can visit her blog, and make friends with her. Cause she's the person who r fun to be with! http://reebellerina.blogspot.com/ msg je, dier tak kesah.

3. Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya.
- mmg sangat pemalu weh. phhbbtttht^%

- ske berDOTa walaupun asik jadik feeder. tunggu la saat yg indah akan tiba. nanti sumer lari tanak main satu lane ngan ako. hahahahhahahahahah

- love and will continue to sing to the end of the pitch (read: pitching menjunam ke laut) although people start making the face that i'm not Cristina Aguilera. yes, i'm not her, but who cares? i pay whot?

- fond bowling, but there's no one to accompany me anymore as he spent more time on his golf-ing.

- cukupla tuh

4. Anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnya dan menyatakan nama mereka di blog anda.

- ako tanak kasik award redundant (read: award same yg melimpah-limpah) tp sape yg tak dapat lagy, ape lagy rebutla peluang ini utk jadik cute blogger 2008, klo ade rezeki, mungkin 2009 pon boleh.

sekian, terima kasih.

p/s: ako mamai arinih. dan tak berminat utk pk pasal keje

21 Questions

he used to sang this song to me, when the song was top on the chart. i would thought this would be a sappy song for a rapper who known as '50 cent'. his single ' In the Club' was the in-thing back then, and later, he came out with this kind of song.

please switch on your imaginary channel, imagine a tough, half-naked hulk singing a love song with that look in his eyes. the 'lovey dovey' look. ouch! hahahahahahhah

OK, i really can't bare to imagine 50 cent singing this to me, cause i'm not head over heels towards him, and he does not make me dream about him every night. but, if your special one singing this to you? this song just turn into a new era, a new touch, a new meaning. ewahh.

girls always think about their security. yes, that's true, indeed it applies to every single of women. it's just how women lead their life in achieving the level of security are different with each other.

when the hulk produced this song, i could feel that, guys would want themselves to be loved as themselves, as the real them. (biase la tuh kami pompuan nak yang terbaik utk kite berdue. hahahahaha. korang pon same, dun be in denial) i admit girls are easy to fall in love with some hunks. hunks as well known, are totally driven and fantasize girls all the time. and then, they might start to say 'Hi' and starting dating, but that's not when the challenge begins. it will just start when both are you thinking about making the relationship further. that's when you can see the true colors of each others, and the idea of how to cope with all the new things can be troublesome (and wonderful also!).

ah, senang citer, ini lagu luahan lelaki yang taff (read: tough) dan saye menghargai keberanian dier sbb lelaki sukar untuk meluahkan perasaan mereka. sebab, selalunye perempuan yang suke meluahkan perasaan, bukan lelaki. sekian, sile la nyanyi nyanyi lagu di bawah.

tolong jangan tembak ako cakap ako seksis.

Girl...It's easy to love me now...
Would you love me if I was down and out?
Would you still have love for me?
Girl...It's easy to love me now
Would you love me if I was down and out?
Would you still have love for me?
Girl...

1. If I fell off tomorrow would you still love me?
2. If I didn't smell so good would you still hug me?
3. If I got locked up and sentenced to a quarter century, Could I count on you to be there to support me mentally?
4. If I went back to a hoopty from a Benz, would you poof and disappear like some of my friends?
5. If I was hit and I was hurt would you be by my side?
6. If it was time to put in work would you be down to ride?
7. I'd get out and peel a nigga cap and chill and drive, I'm asking questions to find out how you feel inside
8. If I ain't rap 'cause I flipped burgers at Burger King, would you be ashamed to tell your friends you feelin' me?
9. In the bed if I used my tongue would you like that?
10. If I wrote you a love letter would you write back?
Now we can have a lil' drink you know a nightcap
And we could go do what you like, I know you like that

11. Now would you leave me if your father found out I was thuggin'?
12. Do you believe me when I tell you, you the one I'm loving?
13. Are you mad 'cause I'm asking you 21 questions?
14. Are you my soulmate? 'Cause if so, girl you a blessing
15. Do you trust me enough, to tell me your dreams?
I'm staring at ya' trying to figure how you got in them jeans
16. If I was down would you say things to make me smile? I treat you how you want to be treated just teach me how
17. If I was with some other chick and someone happened to see?
18. And when you asked me about it I said it wasn't me, Would you believe me? Or up and leave me?
19. How deep is our bond if that's all it takes for you to be gone?
We only humans girl we make mistakes, to make it up I do whatever it takeI love you like a fat kid love cake

You know my style I say anything to make you smile

20. Could you love me in the bently?
21. Could you love me on a bus?

I'll ask 21 questions, and they all about us

Could you love me in the bently?
Could you love me on a bus?
I'll ask 21 questions, and they all about us

Ya, saya kemukakan yang same kepada en bf.

p/s: got a few questions above that too 'ewww' for me, and it may to you too. so just ignore it. wat dunno, got me? :P one more, ako pakai label je soklan tuh haha

pp/s: yer ade label baru, 'lelaki' hahahahahahhahaha

note: the 21 questions game is THE way to get to know someone without being awkward; actually carrying a conversation with someone in order to learn about them might be harmful to you and the other person. it can be any questions (doesn't mean to be the same as above) that you have in mind. try it, you might love it!

The Old Memory

i have done some packing for the job training in Bangalore that has been scheduled tomorrow, and now it has been cancelled due to management issue. half happy and half upset. heh. i do think i'm ok with it after our lil talk at mamak last night with mun mun and wa wa (haha cam twin lak). and yes, my dear BF is soooo happy with the news. that means (for him) that he won't celebrate our 6th anniversary alone this upcoming 12th January. horrrey!

but i do worried about the status of the company. it does worries me much.. sigh sigh sigh

while i'm packing my bag for the trip a few day before, it bring along the old memories back when i have the offer from the boarding school.

jeng jeng jeng
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"akak, dah buat check list cam abah suruh tuh?"
"dah. nape bah?"
"meh sini nak tengok (paused ngan kerut kerut muke) nape cam ade banyak je yang tak cukup. isk. meh la abah tambah lagi"

and he went on writing more things into my checklist (which is yang sebenar-benarnye incomplete yet because abah is so strict by the due date i just told him that i've done with it. huhuhu haruu). and later abah passed the list to me again, and to my amazement, the list has gone 2 times longer than the previous one.

talking about my dad, dude. he's all about perfection in work, although he can be as laid back as he wanted. haha

anyway, what can be expected from the form 1 student when this is her first time she gonna be far away from her parents. you could assume that she haven't prepared anything, because she believed she just going to the same school as the other school.

the time has come for the registration. farhana and nazihah have waited for me for quite some time just to make sure that we will have the same dormitory, but sad news to us as they already placed our name to the designated dorm. me and farhana were on our half-lucky strike as we were placed in the same dorm, while nazihah's dorm was at the 3rd floor.

farhana, being the one who are very closed to her family, was being totally gloomy that day. she doesn't like the idea of being far away from her family, which for me i totally didn't understand at that time. because at that time, i'm the person who don't know what's 'missing someone' means. i'm not that close to my family either at that time rasenye la kut

week passed us by, and i can see the whole 1st week, the public telephones provided were fully occupied. there were 3 telephones overall at our hostel, and girls do fight about their rights using the phone (mind you there were some people that will go on talking talking talking sob sob and talking like for-evah!)

"mak, tak suke la duk sini. tak same la cam kat umah *teary eyes*"

"mak, nape lauk kat sini tak sedap macam yg mak masak kat umah eh? tak best la"

"mak, tolong la amek saye balik. sangatla tak best kat hostel nih"

sumer nak ber-mak mak la kan. kat umah tanak ber-mak mak. baru ko tahu duk jauh dari mak bapak.

what i'm trying to tell here is that, everyone was feeling homesick and i wonder am i the only one who is happy here? why i'm not reacting as them? why i don't feel anything? if i called home, i won't take a long time to chit chatting with my family. enough with asking how are they doing and chit chat a little bit more and i'm done. but the others would be so draggy when they called home.

i labeled them as 'the crybaby' *yer betapa sombong nye ako time tuh*

every weekend farhana would received a visit from her parents. being me who is a close friend to her at that time, and has known her parents for some a quite time, i'll always be beside her when she was meeting them. i can see there was a smile on her face, something warm wraps her. i'm quite sure she was happy when seeing them there close to her.

every time her parents make a visit to her, that every time too they will asked me "abah ngan umi tak datang ker?" and i would politely replied, "tak la uncle. abah busy kot"

but.. 4th week came, and they asked the same question, and i'm giving the same old answer, her father suddenly said, "takpela, uncle pon bleh jadik abah atiqah kan?" and he smiled.

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*dumbstruck*

i can feel like my heart have stopped. i stood there, and it was hard to breath. too many eyes were staring at me, waiting for me to give my response. slowly i manage to get my composure back and replied with a soft, weak smile, "nak masuk dulu la, saje jumpe uncle ngan auntie nak salam-salam dan tanye khabar. jumpe lagi!".

i dashed to the toilet and sobbed. and the sobbing worsen with the thought that my parents haven't seen me for a month, and just now my friend's father said he can be my father. bang! i'm not mad at him for saying that. really, it just hit me with the reality.

for a 13 years old teenager, i'm not thinking at my best. i'm not at my best for the clueless emotional rampage. i'm not a spoilt kid back in home, but this is my first time seeing myself in a weak condition. i've barely knew myself anymore when i realized that i'm crying harder. is this me? is this the real me?

later, i called home, and i did what the others did. the draggy conversation, the sobbing part, the mak-mak thingy, all have came back to me right on my face. HAHAHA look, who is the crybaby now eh? *raised up my white flag kuang kuang kuang*

abah directly came at me the very next day. and i got TONS of surprise. wahhhhhh

1. lotsa food; junk food, chocs, sweets you named it.
2. some new long sleeve shirt
and the most important thing at that time
3. my first ever walkman :D

huahuahuahuahuahauah. tak nanges dah. bleh tahan bapak ako sogok ako :D

thanks to this school because without this experience i wouldn't be teached on how to be independent and know to appreciate others.

me luv ma familia!

p/s: aca kasik nih semalam while having our sisterly-dine-out "motorsikal apa yang berpusing-pusing tapi tak bergerak". the answer is totally hilarious. haha but i guess everybody knew it already pon :D

The Job Matter

i really need another job. a job that can occupy me jobs for 9 hours at the office without wandering around doing nothing. yer macam melangut depan pc buat buat bz. atau keluar lepak lepak. atau _______ (sile isi sendiri)

i do like free time, who doesn't? but if the free time means lingering like this for 1 year and a plus (and coming.. oh!), i would go nuts in no time. haha.

eh what? find something to fill in your free time at the office?

i really have enough to think more on what to do in my free time. dah mati kutu. i admit i'm not the one that will study during my free time. i'm the one who study last minute; means if i do get the job, and then i will go study for it. i'm not proud of it, but that's myself. i'm no angel to study during my free time without knowing what's waiting me. (ok mungkin ako patut berubah sket disini. hehe) and here, 1 year and a plus without any major improvement. nothing? yes, it is trully a big dissapointment.

but, can i survived out there without having good resume while working here in company xXx? ceh, ako pon dah tiru xXx. tajaan cikpest honestly, i don't know. i really don't. the last option that i have is just

"GO FOR IT"

btw,

SHE GOT THE JOB!

i'm so happy for you dear! shie's coming home and hell yeah we'll rock KL like we used to! <3 u


p/s: aca tgh praktikal skang kat KLCC. bimbang plak ngan adik ako sorang tuh. huhu